writeforself

3 am and I am wide awake thoughts start whriling inside my head the silence of the time so high quietly killing me inside I take your picture in my hand and watch them as sleepless I stand try to feel the touch I miss hold them close to feel the kiss I close my eyes trying to sleep cuddle in with ur thoughts deep the pictures start playing in my eyes but my mind makes up noise "no, u are dreaming way too much girl, wake up dear and see the real world" "u are wishing for the impossible; "learn to hold before harder you fall" the noise gets louder and loudest as it could get but it could not change the love my heart had set "no no matter how hard it gets or the criticisms I will need to bear, my dreams are beautiful as I see it, for it is the beginning of divinity" happy and content my heart seemed a glow of joy ruled in in loudest of the noise my mind said I could hear the whispers my heart made ...

मुस्कान त्यो क्षण भरको, मुस्कान बन्यो त्यो जिन्दगी मेरो  रहर थियो जुन मेरो, बन्यो त्यो आशा जिन्दगीको खुला आकाशमा उड्ने चाहना,  तिम्रा हात समाई हिँड्ने पाइला  तिमीसँग बाँडिएका ती हाँसो, अब बन्दैछ जिन्दगी मेरो  मुस्कान त्यो क्षण भरको, मुस्कान बन्यो त्यो जिन्दगी मेरो तिम्रा हातमा मेरा हात, दुई पलको हाम्रो यो साथ चाहना मिठो सपनाको,  अब बन्दैछ जिन्दगी मेरो   सँगै हिंडेका ती बाटो, अब यात्रा बन्दैछ यो निरन्तरताको   मुस्कान त्यो क्षण भरको, मुस्कान बन्यो त्यो जिन्दगी मेरो

I wish I could be the scissor that run through your hair Cut the strand, every single of them with care I wish I was the sharp blade that jog around your neck Give a smooth careful walk for a clean shave I wish I was the water that dripped from your head Kiss your lips as I trickle from your forehead I wish I was the towel that you wrap around your face Tenderly feel your face as you carefully clean as race I wish I was the muffler that you tie around I’d wrap you in my embrace all day long

He smiled at me as I watched him Those enchanting looks simply fascinating I stare at him whenever he’s not watching In the silence, just wishing Oh! Someday you’d feel the way I do Someday you’d say you love me too Someday you’d come for sure Someday you’d kiss me and make me yours Everyday I dream you to be mine walking together hand in hand  and I am not scared for my fears run Just when I am wrapped in your arms And again I see you as you are walking away Then in silence I start my pray Oh! Someday you’d feel the way I do Someday you’d say you love me too Someday you’d come for sure Someday you’d kiss me and make me yours I wasn’t this way, but you got to know For I have fallen in love with you so Under the stars at night,or the sun that shine so bright I see you to be with me dear I close my eyes every time, wishing you to be mine The smiles make me smile the touch of yours make me feel alive everyday I see you from ...

Up in the air we set to fly around lost our senses,  as we left the ground round and down, we went up high on the big rollercoaster ride I closed my eyes in fear you held my hand and said "I am just right here" I looked into your eyes that held the magic of the sun that rise I whispered "no this ain't a dream"  "I love you" I screamed "the feelings are going strong and we need to carry this for too long" as the ride went wild i lost all my fear with you my side no this ain't a fairy tale that we live it's for the eternity the love we give the deep blue sky as birds we fly and the fresh air through my hair a kiss we shared with the free fall we spread love in the air

 I held myself rubbed my hands put on my cap but still no warm my boots are on thick socks beneath piles of clothes my coat's underneath leg warmers and gloves a muffler on top but the coldness still robs I walk through the streets see people fret everyone is so frigid everything is so rigid thick fog block my way no much of sun ray as the cold wind howls the chill reaches my soul winter, o dear winter why are you getting so bitter I have added on my weight with the thick jackets I get everyone got the winter woes about the cold and thick clothes water seems to be a foe o dear I love the winter though HAPPY WINTER :)

you are my time machine you take me back when I was teen being with you around feels like you are eighteen and me sixteen running in the alleys, through the empty streets sneaking out at night and feeling so free in the silence under the stars step by step I taught you to dance when you hold my hand in there a song plays in my sphere O, you are my time machine you take me back when I was teen being with you around feels like you are eighteen and me sixteen a rush to the hills for the sunset then a hug that feels so fresh walking like we are crazily in love o this has never happened before then waiting for the moon to rise and a kiss on your lips beneath the light hand in hand and face to face we forget about the rest then from the hearts a song gets played O, you are my time machine you take me back when I was teen being with you around feels like you are eighteen and me sixteen

up and down I see things now i have seen earlier but its different now hold me tight, so I don't fall wait ! u too standing upside down u smile and make me drunk ur smile intoxicate than any drug u talk silly, u act one n u say i am drunk! u are so confused or crazy? oh oh I see u too are drunk i am drunk U knw tht but u are laughing as if u are u smile and i go tipsy oh god is this a reverse action? seems the night is drunk for I am writing like a big trunk the lines seems not to end woahhh!! more lines are to come should i add up to the lines? or the drunken poem is to end? wait! u got to listen to it tonight the broken wheels still need to mend u added to my bottle and you say you are fresh; come on this is not done the night is still long lets talk abt me and u, lets share present and future too the car is broken and the streets are lone my poem is on and the bottle is full on ...

I know you have things to say You start and then just end I too have many things to say but I feel this it's just not right this way I long to see you everyday I wait for the breaks I peek through the window at times hoping to see your face that shines "I think...." you start and then stop because we both know it won't work Unsaid word gives us the joy which even the expressed words won't It's just a smile that worth for us and few steps together we take In our dreams we soar above the sky but in reality we both know where we lie

In the silence of the darkness, I rise As the dawn ascends, I escape I walk into the nights,  put on my silvery sights The trees, the rivers, the mountains I walk upon the streets, the roofs where my rays fall on coat themselves to my gloss then the earth glisten in emboss In the silence of the darkness, I rise Slowly I creep into your window side Sing a lullaby into your ears As you lay awake in my light Soon you fall for the deep sleep But in the silence of the darkness I still rise Photo Credit:  MK Duwal

you are sad you feel you stand at a zero everything around is no good their smile seem so sarcastic the wise words look they lie you hang down  your esteem is to die  you wait, wait and wait but that's not the way cuz all you need is a fight against all this plight for you have the right to be happy and make things go right its just a matter of time  the things will then come other way round being happy and proud for who you are then respect will surround the only thing to learn is not to lose I am doing the same  I hope you too

things go wrong they did go wrong but what matters, is the learn you wish you'd quit you wish you'd leave emptiness surrounds frustration befriends. but in all those wrongs there's one thing you earn a tune to hum or a song to never let go to never fall down for the rise after fall is the golden dawn

Looks like I've messed up turned everything upside down in the verge of giving happiness I think I just left you to frown So I think I shall make a leave now let you free from every vow will slow down my life for a while and then shall see u smile The pain has been too much for you to take, I see So hope my departure would  make feel you better at least No I ain't gonna see you anymore no any lines of sadness again I shall disappear as I never was with all your miseries, all your pain No I ain't gonna meet you I won't be with you, no more cuz your happiness that mattered I was the one to shatter So I shall depart for now into a journey to unknown but then still a part of you I shall carry down

the empty streets the cold night a restless heart a worried mind eve growing darker people hurrying home street lights on and I'm standing alone chilled breeze blew a shiver shook me hungry eyes raised but I kept standing stretched my eyes to the ends of the road strangers walked by but I don't see you emptiness filled around my heart raced at every sound by the pavement  below the lamp for a while I then sat nothing seemed known even my shadow estranged no one to accompany me except the lonely time time moved on  but I stood still waiting in the dark here for you to be  I told you I'll wait no matter how long by heart I started our love song the song of promise the words of faith the verses of holding each other no matter how long be the wait "I'll always wait"

A note I thought I knew what it is called to be love I thought I knew how it felt to be in love But you made me feel more than I thought I got You brought in the sun which I missed the most you brought the freshness in the air I breathe a different way to love you made me see Just a little note through these verse that you'll always be loved through all the heartaches that we have gone the love shall always remain, though togetherness will be gone.  We have been the best friends and the lovers, away from everyone between the hearts Just a little note through these verse that my affection  will never be lost like the air we can't see forever there, I will be the pains that we've faced and the tears we have cried with every passing day, we've lived a new life Just a little note through these verse how much I am blessed for to get you here though the togetherness was transitory but a...

Your departure is what I fear Goodbye from you I don't want to hear It'll be the saddest word for me It's the painful thing that will ever be You have been deep engraved  into my heart, you know It'll be a real agony  to ever let you go 'cuz I found a dream in you A shaft in shadow like a guiding star like the after rain rainbow Your departure is what I fear Goodbye from you I don't want to hear For someday you say it, I will cry it will be painful to hear from you goodbye as your golden footprints are imprinted so hard for someday you opt to bid farewell There will nothing remain I will be torn apart Your departure is what I fear goodbye from you, I don't want to hear

Change is what I saw everyday in everything and everywhere Time took me to such a phase which I thought I'd never face I've seen clouds alter their shape and hearts that do change As times moves I know nothing will remain the same, the bonds you have or the emotions attached or be a boy turn into an old man Nothing remains same forever be it summer or winter Tomorrow never comes as said who knows what may happen next Say what you need to  before its too late At present, in the moment before the emotions change and regret for not saying what was needed to be said

  A little hesitant they both were Shyness walled between them Through the streets as they walk They both could feel the same  In the silence their hearts spoke They shared glances along The breeze that flowed that moment Whispered a love song  He held her hand for the moment Their hearts then raced He pulled her close And she fell for the moment  Holding her in his arms So close they were now The serenity and the ambiance Made them fall in love again She looked into his eyes And so did he The warmth of eachother’s breath They both could feel Before the seconds could pass The aloofness vanished A lifelong joy they found In their first kiss